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  Michelle

  1 year ago

  I do it feel sometimes. And it feels heavy from the inside. It feels heavy to know that all this happiness is a mask for the masquerade you're attending to.
  But, how the stranger might be true, the truth still lies within you.
  Being happy or sad does not matter much.
  What matters is whether you make these sad or happy events a pivot to a better ahead. =)
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  ria

  1 year ago

  for some reason, i've been wanting to get red shoes lately. i haven't found the "right one" though. :) i do hope you find that something you're looking for Su Ann. you're one of my favorite people and would love to see you really, truly happy. :)
  
  take care dear! and if you ever run out of places to visit, there's always my poor old country. hehe.
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  Miss Tacky

  1 year ago

  hi su ann! you're someone with tremendous potential to succeed in life and obviously you haven't yet fulfilled your potential cause of your age, the fact that you're still in school, experience and etc. that's probably why you're feeling an inherent sadness. all of these circumstances are evolving day by day and one day (soon!) they will converge at a precise point where you will feel completely happy and at ease with yourself. from that point onwards, it will be a breeze, trust me. cheers
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  ionStorm

  1 year ago

  how about God? ;)
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  sheon

  1 year ago

  a trip to somewhere new?...well.......dont we all need that?....sigh
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  susannah

  1 year ago

  what does upskirt mean??
  
  yea.. i know what you mean by your insides throbbing with sadness.. =( i feel that way too and always having to mask sadness with a mask of happiness and cheer.. it's only like that this year? maybe its hormones or just a phase in life?? haha. hope we'll both be really truly happy soon!
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  Yappy

  1 year ago

  Hmmm.... somewhere new... Try Bali? Go for their SPA everyday, shopping, try out the seafood... or some other islands like Maldives. Maybe your feelings of sadness is caused by stress from SAT 2 and from other sources. It's good that you let it out, you can also talk about it to Martian and your friends. Sometimes I feel sad too and talking about it to my friends works for me. The solutions they gave sometimes help but the most important thing is to let it out.
  For the mean time, maybe you can put everything you listed above in a To Do list and try to cross it out one by one? :)
  Take care Su Ann and go get your flight ticket to somewhere now! :)
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  blue

  1 year ago

  hi pinky, I have been reading your blog recently, and your world inspires me even though I am not part of it. I envy you. Today, it just opened a window on how I may live my life to the fullest.. to taste, see, feel and share life. I think in some ways you are a role model to your friends who log in, to read your latest posting so they may be in your shoes for awhile, savouring life at its best. And the satisfying things are not thing, but emotions, love, happiness, joy which you share freely and openly. I think you are a great writer - you write without trying, and you put your heart into it. If I become a filmmaker one day, I ask your permission to make a movie about your life. It will be called Pinky - A Storybook Life. :)
  I think you
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  Jun

  1 year ago

  looks like u're not too tired to blog eh? ;> funny bout the red shoes, cos a fren of mine wears hers every time she feels blue... do u?
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  songjun

  1 year ago

  upskirting you isn't very hard to do u know :P HAHAHA
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  songjun

  1 year ago

  come visit me in uk la then u can meet pretty eyes ;) HAHA
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  Liz

  1 year ago

  hey pinkpau,
  i've been reading your blog for quite some time now, tho I hardly comment. Just wanted to say that your blog is really really inspiring. To many of your readers, you seem to be living a 'fairytale' life, but your writing is also really honest - you manage to describe your emotions really really well and are not afraid to show that you're just like any other normal girl out there... the occasional insecurities, sadness & confusion. :D
  Yet despite all of that, you still seem really optimistic and brave about everything.
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  blue

  1 year ago

  When you said you feel like a painting on the wall, you could also be the centre of attraction - big eyes, cute smile, long legs, fun-loving, witty, daring, eloquent, knowledgable, etc ... the whole package, because not all paintings make it to the wall.
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  Karyn

  1 year ago

  How sweet of him. You two are like a couple meant to be together. Lol.
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  fern

  1 year ago

  the card was just too sweet :D do make it a point to share your oreos with him today
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  Michael

  1 year ago

  when u gt martian, ur happy deep inside i think. love always overcome sorrow, does it?
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  Pet

  1 year ago

  you hit the spot with that one =)
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  wan siong

  1 year ago

  Hey, you guys are like overly praising her relationship with martian..
  Kinda make me think that the defination for a perfect love would be best described with pinkpau and martian..
  -_-"
  No offence ya su ann..
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  sieutheng

  1 year ago

  wei let's go for a trip together...! i need one badly too =(
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  jess

  1 year ago

  tot u hv a trip recently... pls bring me hahahhaa
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  reallybites

  1 year ago

  i like drunk ppl.
  
  come visit me lah =)
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  ashleighhhh

  1 year ago

  haha i know that feeling.
  fresh laundry. never tried that one before..
  my guitar and a foosball table works best to keep my mind off things. teehee.
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  lishun

  1 year ago

  you've already begun your search for that something and it's probably nearer than you think. just keep your eyes and ears and heart open!
  
  btw that card is so schweet...i'm gonna go into a hyperglycaemic coma. wait. is that even possible? *googles* oh yeah it is. call myself a medical student. haha.
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  Artificially Timtam

  1 year ago

  i rikes them red shoes and sundresses and RED SHOES.
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  tze

  1 year ago

  er when she says 'talking about sex with tze' she doesnt mean this tze ok this tze is like the holiest person ever wtf
  
  (eh we havent finished talking yet la)
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  paupau

  1 year ago

  your drunk stranger reminds me of a guy in the psychiatric ward of a hospital that told me that i belonged there as much as him ... haha.
  
  it's funny how silly little things like cards can change the mood of a day
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  Kevin

  1 year ago

  Wehh, when you gonna help me handle my facebook hahah
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  prawn

  1 year ago

  hehehe.. i have the exact same card =D
  When ppl are drunk, they usually say the truth & do things that really means something. Maybe not all the time though =P
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  Shingo T

  1 year ago

  Better don't let my wife read this entry.
  She will expect alot more from an insensitive guy like me.
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  MichelleSY

  1 year ago

  LOL - how cute is your dad!
  
  Between being his personal spell-checker and trying to hide all your gorgeous shoes from your mom, you must be a busy busy girl =)
  
  And I'm ROTFL at "talking about sex with Tze wtf"
  
  It's OK hon, we all have those days.
  
  I think that some of us (myself included) lmust have been born with a hyper-attenuated sad gene that kicks in at the drop of a hat. Or the drop of a glass. Or the drop of a peanut-butter sandwich, peanut-butter side down, on the floor.
  
  You get what I mean.
  
  But hugs (even e-hugs) can make things a teensy-weensy bit better (so can a Martian and moving into the ultimate Martian pad!).
  
  So here's one: *hug*
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  bulat

  1 year ago

  guess you are not alone *laughs*
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  pinkpau

  1 year ago

  michelle : that's really easier said than done
  
  ria : it is SO hard to find the right pair of red shoes! and haha what a coincidence; i was just thinking of heading to cebu :P
  
  miss tacky : the young age doesnt hold me back at all :) it's not a factor. but i will look forward to this happy precise point you speak of! i hope it comes soon. sigh.
  
  ionstorm : God's not a little thing.. :)
  
  sheon : yes we all do!
  
  susannah : upskirt means peeking up a girl's skirt, be it from under a table or as she walks up stairs. hehe yes let's hope that happiness gets less elusive in time to come
  
  yappy : no i went to bali early this year. i really wanna go somewhere i've never been! it would be a great combo of relaxation and excitement. yknow, you give really good advice :) sometimes i forget that i have friends and a great boyf to talk to, and i always end up bottling things inside. which sometimes is the cause of all this sadness. that to do list thing is an excellent idea :D :D
  
  blue : thank you so much for your high praise :) sometimes it's the little things that really define how much the big things mean to us.
  
  jun : i could never be too tired to blog.. haha! and ditto about the red shoes
  
  songjun : what are you trying to imply!!! haha ya UK for spring/summer 2008!!!!
  
  liz : people think i live a fairytale life? haha i wish that were true.. :) and thank you for noticing. i try my best to keep my blog as honest as it was the first day i started it :)
  
  blue : no no no i said i feel like painting on a wall :P as in getting a brush and painting on it!
  
  karyn : hahaha thank you thank you i think so too
  
  fern : it's so funny that you say that, cos he just told me today that he ate 2 oreos in thinking about me. and he never eats cookies, or oreos for that matter! :D
  
  michael : sometimes love is what causes the pain
  
  pet : who? me? michael?
  
  wan siong : why cant perfect love be defined by us! huh huh why not!
  
  sieutheng : really??? okokokokok. when are your hols! or shall we do a weekend thing to perhentian or something
  
  jess : haha okays but only if you bring me with you on your future trips
  
  reallybites : ya ya then i can eat tau sar pneah!!!!
  
  ashleighhh : guitar and foosball! haha that is so like a guy
  
  lishun : i try, i really do :) hyperglaycemic.. that means too much sugar, right? people can go into a coma from that???
  
  artificially : only if they're high heels right :P
  
  tze : good good continue continue :P then i can be happy summore
  
  paupau : someone from a psych ward said that to you??? HAHAHAHHHAHA POOR YOU
  
  kevin : haha soon soon soon !!!!! how could i pass up something so exciting
  
  prawn : yea this drunk guy was pretty sharp in all his inebriatedness..
  
  shingo t : haha be forewarned; my boyfriend is pretty romantic in his surprises :P and i have a high tendency of blogging these things!
  
  michellesy : thank you babe :) hugs are so therapeutic. *hugs bak
  
  bulat : i dont understand!
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  ionStorm

  1 year ago

  oh...nono...I was referring to this...
  
  "deep down inside i throb with sadness. sadness for something i long for, but will never get. no i dont actually know what that something is, though i wish i did so i could go out and look for it."
  
  but anyways... :)
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  Michael

  1 year ago

  agree. pain caused by love can only be cured by time or love itself, i think.
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  foreverjas

  1 year ago

  nicely written. luv it more than i luv mcd!
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  lishun

  1 year ago

  yeah, they can. but it's nothing a shot of insulin can't take care of...haha. no la not so simple.
  
  anyhoo hope you didn't fall asleep in the middle of all that boring medic showoff fact dishing out. err. lol.
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  JustAnotherTragedy

  1 year ago

  mmmm i miss having pisang gorenggggg!
  i think im gonna go grab myself some tomorrow!
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  blue

  1 year ago

  PinkPau you are a star. A posting about a fraction in the day of your life, and a mere minute into your mind and you are able to draw tens of comments. Friends anxiously login every few hours to read your latest posting and feedback. And you answer every single comment/feedback with a smile, which brings relief to their pain. Do you ever wonder how you've got such commanding power like that? I think I know....
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  Artificially Timtam

  1 year ago

  yup. only if they're REAL high heels :)
  so ur gonna deface martian's wall? can i paint too? :P
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  blue

  1 year ago

  ....people are in love with love.
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  ben

  1 year ago

  have u too had sex yet? .. mayb thats wat u need su ann. =p
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  Michelle

  1 year ago

  Well, nothing is impossible really. =) Anyway, I hope you feel much better after receiving the card.
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  WristBandMan

  1 year ago

  the guy who says you are unhappy.... i think he just wants to poke your breasts...
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  Johanny

  1 year ago

  So cute of Martian to send you the card... even though he is a lot closer now :P I can't believe he still tries to upskirt you... ;) When are you coming to see me... that should be added to your list... hahahaha :P
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  tze

  1 year ago

  ionstorm: get over it la wtf not everything has to revolve around religion ok
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  Charlie

  1 year ago

  People who are polite to flyer-distributors are such a rarity la. : ( Even my parents, who are supposedly shining paragons of social propriety, don't even acknowledge their existence. I like it too when people are nice to them. After all they're only trying to do a good, honest job...
  
  I really don't get how grocery shopping can make anyone happy though! : P
  
  to tze: Thank you for taking the words right out of my mouth. ; )
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  hw

  1 year ago

  pinkpau .. love the way you can tell a story and put down your emotions and thoughts into words so well - a number of which we all can relate to somewhat i guess. I've been feeling really tired and lost within the insanity of reality and life recently as well. I'm in dire need of a vacation, which I am getting (though it's not really a vacation since I'm going over to the United States on a business tripbut nevertheless a break from the day-to-day monotony of being in KL and working from home).
  
  Love reading your blog btw. If you feel like painting on a wall, you've definitely accomplished it, albeit on a blog-wall.
  
  Speaking of goreng pisang, I love the one in Brickfields across the road from YMCA. They have the best goreng pisang (crispy, juicy and sweet) as well as nice fried 'nian gao' and delectable curry puffs. Think I'll go get some tomorrow.
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