DISQUS

zero · 1 year ago

first!

Jeff from LA · 1 year ago

I love your economic risk/benefit analysis of the value of friends.

I think that in my personal experience, the key with friends though is realizing which ones you can really trust and rely on. I hang out with a lot of different friends on a frequent basis, but there's a much smaller circle of friends that I know I can rely on when things get tough. There are friends you have fun with and friends that are like family.

The part where things can get really bad is if you treat a friend who only is worthy of hanging out with as a friend that you can rely on. That's where people really get hurt. Unfortunately, you usually can't tell which type of friend they are until you have to rely on them.

LJY · 1 year ago

Commenting to say I am truly empathetic in this case, except with the sleeping pills~ I am trying to correct my sleeping pattern before that.

Other than that, ...*gives you a soft pillow*

sie · 1 year ago

I am so glad you get lemonade :)

agree with LJY too

foreverjas · 1 year ago

i love lemonade! ya and friendship do come cheap these days... T.T sad.

grace · 1 year ago

about the sleeping part..i'm also suffering frm insomniac due of stress..i guess that it is quite normal these days..
hope you will overcome it also..>.

sheon · 1 year ago

go easy on the pills k?......and thanks for the lesson :) lemonade... ahh.....my life is full of lemons....

KY · 1 year ago

No sleeping pills please su ann!!

just another reader · 1 year ago

i've been following your blog for awhile now and i think you have a great way with words.

plus, despite the pink background which screams 'fluff!' your posts ( especially this most recent one ) go so much deeper.

'erudite' is the word that springs to mind.

Wannabe Economist · 1 year ago

There are two types of greatness in humanity, one being the secondary(personality) and another primary(character). We can be good at dealing with peoples, good in making friends, good in communicating, but all for our selfish purposes. Eg companies and organizations do charity nowdays for publicity. We pick up all sorts of personality traits from self-help or success books nowdays, we're good in "the way" to deal with friends, to make friends, or to keep friends, but somehow what's left behind is our character, we're lack of genuity and originality, we treat people good for our own benefits, thus making friendships like business transaction as you said, we no longer treat people with a heart.

Jun · 1 year ago

u have brilliantly summarised every detail that i have come to observe in the workforce (and, by extension, society). it is a hard blow, to realise that the rose-tinted glasses u once wore to view the world had slipped from the bridge of ur nose-- and u weren't even aware of when it happened until much later, when the true colors of the world jolts u from ur trance, and u discover that not everything is as rosy as ur tinted glasses made them seem to be.

and if i may give u some advise, my dear young muse: pls dun start taking slping pills just yet. i'm sure there must be a way to restore ur circadian rhythm thru the non-pharmacological route.

kiasu andrew · 1 year ago

ooo we should share the pills

Tim · 1 year ago

I thought you told me you were optimistic to a fault.

And seriously sleeping pills are *very* bad for you so get off them soon.

Sharon · 1 year ago

I would honestly say that sleeping pills may not be a good idea. I've been imsomniac almost all my life, and I used to take sleeping pills up till a few years ago. Today, I still suffer from imsomnia but I guess it's best to try to tackle them with "natural" remedies. In any case, don't take sleeping pills for too long.

reallybites · 1 year ago

sleeping pills are very addictive! i wanted to take them last year but my friend who had been on it for years and is still on it told me not to.

and yes everyone has a price. so true.

tze · 1 year ago

i have a price! a very high one wtf

MARK YOUR CALENDARS SU ANN FOR THE TZE CHING IS LANDING IN KL! (dunno exact date yet though wtf)

TheRealAnonymous · 1 year ago

is it just me, or is something really bothering u?

Sam · 1 year ago

Glad to see in the midst of all that, you DID get lemonade. Full on nocturnal-ness?

june · 1 year ago

Great article. Couldn't agree more with the friendship part.. sad but true! :) But i still hold optimism that I have true friends with me, and hopefully meet more in the future.

kei · 1 year ago

eh... not sleeping really damages u ?!?!
.. :( yala so nice staying up to study lah so quiet till can do 40 add maths sum (?!?!)

awww get well sooon u seem so down nowadays :p

Michelle C · 1 year ago

No sleeping pills Su Ann! I'm being a mother right now! Drink a glass of warm milk, listen to classical music ( I suggest Satie for a start, good for sleeping ) and have lavender in your pillows.

Take care. Sleeping pills are not the solution!

nyrac · 1 year ago

hey su ann... am worried about them sleeping pills too. when i used to have insomnia problems last time, i tried cajoling one of my doctor friends to prescribe me some, and he said that they are the last things that i ever want to resort to.

have you tried other remedies? you sound unrested and bothered... ever tried meditating? just a humble suggestion...

Charlie · 1 year ago

I whole-heartedly agree with numbers one to four but number five has made me very worried about you!! Please be careful ya. I guess you know this already but just in case: it's very easy to become dependent on those things and there are many horrible side effects (I'm nagging because I care ya : P).

When I have really bad bouts of sleeplessness I play Puzzle Bobble and draw very ugly comics (Intentionally ugly! Because if you care too much about how they look you'll tense up even more). Old Disney movies work too. Hope these things help you as much as they help me.

Please take care ok!!

PS. Michelle C is right about Satie! Hehehe.

call · 1 year ago

Sleeping pills is not the answer...what about getting back into your Martian's arms? He can tuck you into bed and play some soft music to help with the sleeping...

chm · 1 year ago

wow... such a deep post... nt dat ez 2 buy me... if u offer me a trillion pounds i will jump 4 it ^^ jus go read da damned classifieds b4 u go 2 sleep..... on the other hand u might jus check on job oppotunities there.... hmmmm. try reading edgar allen poe b4 u sleep.... sure feel sleepy 1 i tell u...

Michelle · 1 year ago

I give you a list of songs that I believe will aid sleep:

1. Dez Abends- Schumann
2. Gymnopedie Suite- Satie
3. The Swan- Camille Saint Saens
4. Clair de Lune ( The piano version )- Debussy
5. Reverie - Debussy
6. Almost all the nocturnes - Chopin
7. Most of Yiruma's songs make me sleepy.
8. The Girl from Ipanema
9. Ave Maria corpus - Mozart
10. Gregorian chants ( Gives you a feeling that you're in church and someone, it works on me. I wonder if it works on you )

Yep, as a summary, slow piano music would really really help and especially if you're not USED to any classical music, you'll find them boring and eventually doze off after listening to them for a few minutes.

I love classical music but somehow, they induce sleep. =)

chris tock · 1 year ago

pau pau :)

nyuk · 1 year ago

I have been following your blog since last year.

and you are not only intelligent and articulate, but also a very nice person. I really hope you will be fine and feel better soon

songjun · 1 year ago

hmmm... you've been mia for awhile, update me :)

novell · 1 year ago

[friendship comes cheap these days]
i am so agree about this....
i felt like being dumped when they don't need me anymore...( for example: they got new companion?)
But i regret that y i start to believe there is still A sincere friendship which started last year ( but i realized that I'm being fooled and i should stand still to this statement ) >

iamdoryfish · 1 year ago

pink pau, please be strong. You need to be strong!
hopefully u can recover from your insomnia soon. Sleeping pills are not for long term you see. Milk or exercise does not help??

miss p · 1 year ago

I totally agree with Jeff about the friend part

and SLEEPING PILLS ARE A BIG NO NO like what michelle c said. it is bad. maybe try a relaxing herbal drink or a warm cup of milk before sleeping? eating bananas apparently helps as well.

jim · 1 year ago

I can relate to that last point.

I've become somewhat an insomniac too.

It's like my body ticks according to UK time when I'm all the way in Aussie.

Pass me some sleeping pills aights? Please. thank you.

michellesy · 1 year ago

Su Ann, are you alright?

Like many of your other readers, I am bloody worried about #5 =(
Pills can be a temporary stop-gap, but because they're so habit-forming, it's not advisable to use them long-term.

I know you haven't had the greatest/ most stress-free time lately, so if I may be so bold as to suggest having a look at what's making it so hard for you to get a good night's sleep?

Sigh. I'm worried about you babe, please take care of yourself. You're very, very precious to very many people, so please, please treat yourself like the precious object you are to those who care about you.

truffie · 1 year ago

you totally put what i've been feeling about friendship these days into words!!! I'm so glad someone felt the same :) friends now are only for a benefit. thats so sad...

maybe you can try asking someone (special maybe) to coo or baby you to sleep?? :)

Jane Lock · 1 year ago

I think it's pretty much a given in life that there will always be friends who leech off others. And I agree with lesson 2, some people have these amazing egos that never fail to turn people off.
Insomnia...hm...I've never had a problem with that. In fact, I've had problems staying awake. This is the not so secret secret: running everyday in the afternoon. It works like magic. Sleep becomes a desperate necessity :D Try it, maybe it'll work. Plus, keeps ya fit. Kill two birds with one stone yah :)

Francis Foo · 1 year ago

As the Father of Marxism Karl Marx tried to point out...this capitalist system renders all human as a mere commodity. Human relationship exist purely for financial gain.
How i wish marxism really work....

Liz · 1 year ago

i have insomnia too! le sigh. someone once told me that people who are deep-thinkers - people who ponder a lot - are usually the victims of insomnia. that, and pessimism. =( i think its quite true!

i dunno if its the same for you but i find myself 'not sleeping', only to find myself thinking a lot on my bed ... :/ till the mind is awake, though the body is dying for some rest T.T

but sleeping pills are addictive! are u sure u wanna start?

HK · 1 year ago

alcohol beats pills anytime!

The Clock Tower in London but · 1 year ago

amen.

smartypants · 1 year ago

back to the 3 basics and a simple healthy lifestyle, they are inter-related.
- eat healthy real food & drink plenty of water
- exercise regularly such as walking and swimming, not fingers dancing on keyboard only
- sleep is a biological need not your personal choice, musnt screw it further with pills.

Charlie · 1 year ago

You really shouldn't be so much of a pessimist you know. You have so much more going for you than many other people. And I'm not just just talking about not being buried unde piles of rubble in China. Even stuff like being able to get into a good school in America and to be able to afford it. You got money, smarts and looks. You even got a nation of fans who actually care about reading about the life of a total stranger. I don't suppose you realize how lucky you are. More people out there are dying from a lack of love and caring, than from hunger and war. Buckle up, you've got everything anyone could possibly want. You're one lucky person and continuining to believe in lemons when you have all the lemonjuice in front of you just ridicules everyone else who has lemons. And that's imho, no offense intended.

nyuk · 1 year ago

Charlie above me, I am 100% sure you meant well. But I am also sure Pinkpau is not the ungrateful-drown-in-sorrow-and-the-world revolves-around-me type. I don't know her in person, so I could only guess she is not in the calmest phase in her life at the moment. And she has every right to express that. It really would not be fair for us to expect her to be happy 24/7 just because her life seems enviably perfect for some of us. Having said that, Pinkpau, take your time but I do hope you are up and running again soon :)

Rachel · 1 year ago

hey dear, don't get the sleeping pills first. i was never an insomniac but i know the negative effects of these pills. try out the program at pzizz.com and download the sample track. should you need more tracks just let me know and i'll just send some over to you.

Charlie · 1 year ago

Hey, other-Charlie! : P

If the intentions behind your comment are noble, that's awesome. But I think your dear-emo-please-wake-up call was wasted on someone who's already fully conscious.

PS. It's abit presumptuous to say she's got 'everything anyone could possibly want', since you know close to nothing about the full extent of her personal problems.

go to hell · 1 year ago

it's obvious you have a sucky life, do the world a favour and commit suicide so the world one less loser like you.

nyrac · 1 year ago

"go to hell", you sure live up to your name.

sheon · 1 year ago

"go to hell": excuse me?.....

chimera · 1 year ago

I have to second what Charlie said. You have fans worshipping your every move, you have the funds to pursue a US education, besides being able to take trips to places (alone, sometimes, God knows how most teens are disallowed to go on a trip alone by their parents), you have so many things other people could only dream for. I won't stoop to 'go to hell''s level and tell another human being to commit suicide, but I'd like to put another bar of strength behind Charlie's voice, that is not to keep thinking about lemons when others' lemons are so much sourer than yours.

And the part about mediocrity knows nothing higher than itself is distasteful. Who is acting holier than thou now?

k0k · 1 year ago

You know, I can say exactly what "go to hell" said and mean it affectionately xD.

Uh, I fell into a sleep pattern once when I only sleep every two days. Happened during the hols when I was trying to cramp as much fun as possible into the month.

ANd here's to pessimism - we are either right, or are pleasantly surprised, always.

Huge egos is essential for us little people. Great people are awesome, so they already feel good about themselves. The rest of us have to pretend we are great to feel good, unfortch.

grace · 1 year ago

WTH ''go to hell'' how can u say ppl like this!
no one is suppose 2 commit suicide you must be out of your mind

pinkpau · 1 year ago

zero : um, yay!

jeff : sigh you are very right. maybe that's why superstars, rich people and famous people very seldom have real friends.

ljy : thank you :D i love soft pillows. never really understood the hard Tempur pillow thing :P

sie : trust me i am very very glad too :)

foreverjas : lemonade with lots and lots of sugar!

grace : okay i guess with the feedback there is on this comments thread, you and i arent going to be taking sleeping pills anytime soon :P

sheon : what lesson? haha eh no i'm not teaching lessons.. i'm writing about the lessons that i've learned :D haih ok then u must make lemonade out of your lemons!!

ky : yalar everyone on this comments thread so anti sleeping pills wan =(

just another reader : thank you! that's so nice of you to say :)) hehe! the pink background is a ploy!!! to give everyone the impression that i am fluffy and bimbotic when i am actually not!! no lah i kid. the truth is i just like pink

wannabe economist : omg i MUST know if this personality / character thing is a real psychological theory. is it? i've always believed that people have two layers to themselves - one being character and another one that i never had a name for. but what i mean is exactly what you just described :) so is it actually a real theory?

jun : ahh the working world sounds scary then :) ya i have been disallowed by every party possible to forgo the sleeping pills. so i didnt go get any after all. le sigh!

kiasu andrew : androo u scroll up and down and read all the comments! everybahdy say dont take!

tim : no! i am pessimistic to a fault! haih i didnt get any sleeping pills :(

sharon : yes, after listening to all the testimonies from people that sleeping pills are usually only for temporary cases and not insomnia, i decided it was best i didnt get any. so i guess it's natural remedies for me! i am being fed some weird sleep-enhancement tea right now...

reallybites : hehe! i know you know what i'm talking about!

tze : get the exact date then tell me!!!!

therealanon : it's not just you :)

sam : not just nocturnalness... but i cant seem to sleep even when i'm tired :( and when i'm REALLY tired and i sleep, i wake up automatically after like .. 3 hours. which feels more like 10 minutes than 3 hours. haih

june : true friends are the best things we can have. i think that knowledge is the biggest wisdom i possess after my puny 20 years of life :P

kei : ewwww why you stay up to do add mathsss :( i hate add maths :( and yes it caused me much sleeplessness during SPM days too, haih.

michelle c : hehe milk doesnt help me sleep wan! but okay this Satie sounds good :D i'll go download!

nyrac : i am wayyyy too hyper for meditation! one of the reason swhy i cant sleep is because i'm thinking and working things out in my head when i'm in bed. so i'm pretty sure meditation wont work for me :P ya martian is giving me this sleep enhancement tea thing! haih. and he's also forcing me to sleep proper hours whether i like it or not. haih. let's see how that works..

charlie : omg why puzzle bobble hahaha! eh old disney movies cannot lah... i'll get too excited belting out all the songs (i know all the lyrics by heart, and i'm sure you do too :P dont try to deny it!!) yes if anything your comment was what made me think twice about the sleeping pills. you are the future sleep doctor after all :P okay okay i will download this Satie!

call : i tried! still cannot!

chm : classifieds only make me feel like taking up classes or buying dogs.. :P

michelle : WOW haha thank you so much! okay my stupid Ares isnt working. when it does, i will go download all these songs :D

chris tock : tock tock! cheesy wedges!

nyuk : thank you so much :))

songjun : okay you know about #1, #2, #4 and obviously you must know about #5. so i will update you on #3 soon.. haha

novell : i was going to say true friends are hard to come by, but then i thought about it and i realized they arent :) i guess the only thing i have to say is that we shouldnt expect too much out of other people, nor should we go into every new friendship expecting the worse and being all cynical. life is good when we become content with simple things :) all the best, novell

iamdoryfish : milk totally doesnt help (i dont like milk that much!) and i'm too lazy for exercise. heehee. martian gave me this tea thingy.. so we'll see how that works!

miss p : okok :( i very scared oredi cos everyone's warning me about the sleeping pills :( milk doesnt do anything for me, but this sounds like a very good excuse for banana peanut butter sandwiches :D

jim : cannot! so many commenters say it's bad!

michellesy : i seriously have NO idea what's causing it. i just know that i've got a lot of things on my mind, and i keep working these things out as i lie in bed, so in the end i spend some 2-3 hours thinking, and then i'm not sleepy anymore. and i've got loads of things to do and meet up with people in the day time, so that means i have to head out rightaway. and i'm so used to NOT sleeping at night, that my body is just very very awake at night no matter how tired i am. it is so damn WEIRD O__O i'm actually not stressed at all right now!

truffie : not all friends :) i think it's a very small percentage of people, and i usually do everything i can to avoid them. you know the kind i mean.. the ones who only talk to us when they want something.. etc. sigh.

jane lock : agreed about the leeches always being there, but we dont always have to like them :P all they do is take and never give. running in the afternoon sounds very... impossible O_O i have just exposed my horrible and incurable laziness, haih

francis foo : hahahaha your comment made me LOL ! thank u :D

liz : that is EXACTLY my problem! or part of it. the thinking thing :D sigh! we are two peas in a pod

hk : ya but im a damn lousy drinker :(

the clock tower : i know who you are! big ben! which part are you amening to

smartypants : ya but these days it's like my body doesnt even want to sleep. how ah :(

charlie : i agree with you that i shouldnt be a pessimist, because it's quite a silly thing to be. but i disagree with you when you say that i dont know how lucky i am. because i really do :) if you've been following my blog long enough, you'll find that ever so often there are posts dedicated to just how grateful i am for having the love and care that i have now. obviously it is not my intention to ridicule (as you put it) people who have lemons; after all, who could be so purposely cruel. what you're saying is a lesser degree of saying that people dont deserve to be sad simply because there are sadder people in this world. anyway i guess there really is no excuse for being a pessimist. i think a lot of the time i'm just scared of being optimistic and expecting good things.. because as we all know, there are always bad outcomes that can and will hapen. and i'm just scared that i'm not prepared for these things when they happen. hence the pessimism. it makes for a very good shield :)

nyuk : thank you so much nyuk :) thank you for not expecting me to be happy 24/7 even though i have a lot of things to be happy about. because there are sad things in my life too. which of course, doesnt see the light of day in my blog, because they are oftentimes these things are a lot more private than the sad things.

rachel : haha WOW this pzizz thing looks great! thank you for sharing this with me!! do you use it too?

charlie : thank you my dear :))) haih i really dont get why people read blogs and think that they know everything about the blogger. just because some things are not blogged about, doesnt mean that people should assume that they dont exist. *rant

go to hell : ??? but i dont have a sucky life?

nyrac & sheon : haih! nvm lah :)

chimera : unlike charlie whom i think approached the idea correctly, i think you totally misunderstood what i was blogging about. let me try to make this as clear as possible while being discreet because i am not at liberty to expose what i was talking about. when i talked about my lemon and lemonade thing.. it's something that's like (but not really) joining a competition, and being pessimistic about winning because i dont think i stand a good chance among the other people who are more talented and more experienced than i am. but then it turns out by some stroke of luck i actually won. yeah. that's what i'm talking about. so do you really think that i dont have a right to be pessimistic, or that because there are lots of people out there who are worse off than me (and again, horribly ignorant of you to think that i dont realize how lucky and loved i am), i have no right to be sad or scared about anything at all? i dont know whats up with you people.. coming in here and thinking you know everything about my life and what i go through :) and also, nope, you dont know the mediocrity story, and believe me when i say you calling me 'holier than thou' is a big laugh when put in the context of what really happened :)

k0k : hahahaha i totally agree with your pessimism conclusion :P that is the driving force behind why i'm so pessimistic all the time, because i LOVE the pleasant surprises, and i'm prepared for the worst anyway even if it does happen. yalar i mean i'm sure it's okay for us to pretend that we are great, but my point is that we shouldnt step all over other people to 'prove' that point

grace : haih there will always be random people like that!

azhan · 1 year ago

bloodygraciousness! how on earth do you get so many readers on regular daily basis?

and oh yes, a very well written article!

smartypants · 1 year ago

46. go to hell & 49. chimera

feel sorry for you guys. life has been giving bad deals huh? learn to be contented. you sure sound bitter & sour. or perhaps i am jumping into conclusions about you just like you about pinkpau?

smartypants · 1 year ago

oh ya..you guys are a tad jealous too.. dont be...learn to rejoice.... life will be sweeter..trust me..

kai chi · 1 year ago

life does give lemonade when you expect lemons...haha
remember i told you that you'll get thru the semifinal..but you were reali pessimistic about that..see how?
Eric Lee said tat ur speech was excellent, but the judges may not be convinced of the relevance of ur speech to the theme...i guess..
i think that the purposes of having frens are such that u need to identify why do u wan him or her as ur fren in the first place..yes..i muz agree that friendship comes cheap but it is that the true bonding between friends that matters and which i think won't come cheap...

Rachel · 1 year ago

yes dear, i use it too! but like i said, i never was an insomniac so i can't tell you if it works on insomniacs or not but whenever i use it i never dream which basically means i'm in deep sleep.

you could try to download the sample track and if you find it useful or too short you can drop me an email and i'll send you some longer tracks! ^_^

Sam · 1 year ago

the amount of passion you pour into your selection of words, flow of expression involved? it's so extreme that i get it that when u're happy u can be at bliss 110% as well as when u're down, misery fully takes over.

how does it feel to be you su ann?

Artificially TamTim · 1 year ago

ok read it already. sms me when you wake up or else i keel you.

btw, i suddenly find myself in the position of conveniently delivering the decedent joy of baked chocolaty goodness known only as awfully chocolate to your elevated concrete box of temporal residence tomorrow. do let me know if you'd like to exercise that zero cost (not taking calories/waist line gain into account) & zero risk (not taking food poisoning risk into account) option. oh, did i mention i'll be near island creamery too?

Jeff from LA · 1 year ago

Su Ann, you are an all-star for still taking the time to respond to every commenter even when your posts commonly get dozens and dozens of responses. Its yet another reason why everyone loves to follow your blog.

Voon · 1 year ago

wow.. how do you write things like this? amazing =)

azhan · 1 year ago

i began re-reading again this entry and start thinking, oh its just life.

could you tell me the name of the sleeping medication you be taking? i need some too, actually. i've been having Tylenol but its from US and i don't know what to get from local market.

Wannabe Economist · 1 year ago

Your part of the article seems to be inspiring, about the character and personality thingy, I've came up with an entry on my blog, trying my best to described whats it, btw those are just my own perception for the topic, only if you bother to read some words. =)

TheRealAnonymous · 1 year ago

...and by that, I don't mean the things you've just blogged about.
You just sound distant... like there's a war going on in ur head between the opposing pathways of an important decision you've gotta make... Not quite sure which side to support just yet.

*pats back*

ap · 1 year ago

ai yar kena insomnia ler i almost envy u cos no matter how much i recklessly forgo sleep and wreck my sleeping patterns i can always sleep anytime i feel like wan, even before my head touches the pillow plus in shower during assembly in standing position and any kind of vehicle in motion is very sleepable but do look up homeopathic remedies there's this Coffea which eases overactive mind and is made from coffee beans im amazed

btw not to worry abt the plague of charlies(actually one) the reason why im such a pinkpau convert is your sincerity and the heart u put into your words come through so clearly (:

iamthewitch · 1 year ago

I'm sorry to hear about your pessimism and insomnia. At some point, I believe everyone goes through this insomniac stage in life. And I have this friend who has the exact same symptoms like yours, who couldn't sleep unless after being awake for extremely long hours. Somehow, he also resorted to sleeping pills so I guess he had no other ways that could help. All I would say is, I hope you would get out of this insomniac life soon, whatever it takes! Even if sleeping pills help, I'm sure you'd know to discontinue immediately once your sleeping patterns are correct. :) Also, I think it's much better to have principle and friends, than to be the last one standing, but ALONE. :)

pinkpau · 1 year ago

azhan : thank you! :) haha no lah i dont have THAT many readers! i have just enough :)

smartypants : haha thank you smartypants!

kai chi : did eric lee really say that about my speech!! yeah i made a very big mistake with my speech topic. i predicted that would happen but thought it was unlikely to come true. haih! nevermind lah :) making it to the finals was good enough for me. friendship comes cheap, but the best friendship always comes for free :)

rachel : will do :D thank you so much!

sam : what a great question; no one's ever asked me that before! how does it feel like to be me... thrilled, giggly, intense, mood-swingy, lazy, happy :)

tamtim : haih you see i ended up buying and delivering the cake to myself wtf. but i thank you muchly for the island creamery ice cream! there is now half of a cake left beside me. how ah?

jeff : aww come on :) it's nothing that great. if people can take the time to leave me comments, surely i can take the time to reply them!

voon : by being emoe!! haha

azhan : fortunately, i have been forced not to take any pills. i dont think it would be very good (or effective in the long run) for me

wannabe economist : i just read your post :) it's a great article. haha! i should learn to write like you

therealanon : haih! if i see you on msn we shall talk about it !! =(

ap : you sleep during assembly in sleeping position??? hahahahaha oh man. your entire comment just made my day. haha thank you for being such a cool person :D

iamthewitch : but the problem with sleeping pills is tht they can be addictive, right? :\ and i've been having weird sleeping patterns since i was 10 years old. that probably means my habits wont be going away anytime soon. so i guess it's best not to take any medication and try my very darn best to force myself to sleep and wake at proper hours :) martian does a very good job with forcing me.. haha.

Charlie · 1 year ago

Nyuk, Pinkpau: You bring up a good point. You're right, no human can be expected to be happy all the time. Afterall, humans are reflective creatures, which makes us melancholic or upset even though we logically know that we actually have it pretty good. You're also correct in saying that pessimism can be a way of protecting oneself from, eg, disappointment. Fair points and well said. I hope you know I didn't mean that you were purposely trying to ridicule people, just that that is what people who have it worse than you, may be feeling. I guess what I'm trying to say is, generally speaking, although you may be unhappy now or whatever (seeing that your post seems slightly on the bitter side), I hope it's just a transient thing, you have a lot to be happy for.

As for your actual post, what can we say, c'est la vie. There will be friends who you like but also for convenience -to hang out with when you're bored, to listen to you, to help you out, etc. We all do it to some degree or another. Sometimes we will put on a smile, and be nice to someone even if we don't like them so much, because we need to finish a group project together. Sometimes, it's just nice to be nice to someone you might not actually like so much. Showing exactly how we feel about other people all the time, is neither very useful and quite detrimental to world peace and work efficiency. Backstabbing is a different story though. The friends who are true, the ones who like you and who you like just because, those are rare and precious.

Lemonade when you're expecting lemons is nice. Don't feel as if you don't deserve it though. You do. Oh God, I sound patronizing now. Or like, a Hallmark card.

They tell me you should treat the cause of your insomnia, not your insomnia (by means of pills- which are addictive). As in, if you can't sleep, maybe it's cause your worried/ depressed/ stressed/ in pain?? or maybe you just don't have good sleeping habits (using your bed for other things than sleep, napping during the day, have irregular sleep times, exercise or drink just before bed, have a room that is too hot/cold/noisy/bright, etc). Try yoga or light exercise several hours before bed to release sleep-aphilic endorphins. Now I sound like a doctor. Lol. Bet I bet you know that all already.

P.S: I'm trolling your blog cuz I'm bored and I know people who are always 'stalking' your blog so I decided to join in the fun. Please don't hold them responsible for any evil things I may happen to say.

Simon Seow · 1 year ago

OMG. Still having sleep disorder ah. You should relax girl. Try to do some yoga.