quaintly: What Was Running Through Your Mind As You Flew?
Michelle
· 2 years ago
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
Well, I hadn't exactly witness something like this before but once my POL teacher told me about something similar except for the person who died was not commiting suicide. He was being flung down by a couple of illegal immigrants. It's even horrifying because he witnessed the person falling down. Free falling.
Anyway, you should now read Emily Dickinson's There's been a Death in the Opposite House.
God bless the deceased. Amen.
Nicole
· 2 years ago
and i thought i was the only one awake at this hour... amazing.
Karyn
· 2 years ago
Gross ... O_o but I don't think they care or want to care about anything anymore, those ppl who commit suicide. They're just looking for an easy way out of their problems, or they're simply way too depressed.
I hope she's happy too, but do you think people who end their life in such a way find happiness in afterlife?
blue
· 2 years ago
death cannott be analyzed with words. Of all your description above the phrase that struck a chord was: It was horrible. From the looker and the die-er, they are a million miles apart, eventhough connected by sight. Nobody thinks about how to look before the deed. THE ANATOMY OF A SUICIDE - suicide is an uncontrollable urge, when you have gotten past anger, when you hate yourself, and when you have severely disappointed yourself. At this point, your personality is split into two. Called it person A and B. One standing on the ledge, and another watching on. A is angry, and wants to take life into its own hands. B wants to save the day. It is a struggle between two identities within you that is when B have to communicate gently with A....to short-circuit the fear... and it starts by being truthful, admit your fear, admit your disappointments, admit your anger, admit your urge, until person A and B are aligned again. This is truly not a laughing matter.... treat your life with respect.
Jon
· 2 years ago
I did a report on suicide in high school. One of the most obvious tell-tale signs is severe depression and a sudden shift into being at peace and happy a few days prior to committing suicide without any obvious reason. This is the point where the decision has been made and is irreversible.
Of course, there are times when you get people just wanting attention, so they stage false suicide attempts, but even these can go the wrong way and they might end up dead.
I suppose at the end of the day, through various circumstances and consequences in life, not everyone has the courage to endure living... death is the easy way out.
sweat
· 2 years ago
T________________T
i love you babe, just saying this in case i die of sudden brain damage due to the tremendous amount of workload
so sad i read the whole post huhuhu
vvens
· 2 years ago
omg. i would not even dare to go down like the others to see the body although i really wanna know what happened.
is a 100% suicide? could it be some accidents? murder? oops! watching too much of dramas.
whisperingshout
· 2 years ago
If one have the courage to die, why not the courage to live?
nawooz
· 2 years ago
whisperingshout, it's easier saying this when you aren't in that situation. despair with no one in sight to lend a hand or listening ear, can lead to unreasonable thoughts.
you know why they coined the term "love is blind"? it's coz you aren't thinking with your head anymore. it's with your heart and emotions. god knows what that kinda thinking can and will do to you.
it's sad that she chose the easy way out, but for some people, a dead-end is all they see. may her soul rest in peace.
sheon
· 2 years ago
i remember, when i was still a kid back in alor star. there was this suicide incident just a few houses away from mine. apparently a poor indian lady hanged herself from the stairs. like any other kids, my curiosity was killing me! i HAD to see a real BODY! and you know what, even the cop standing at the gates told me.."you mau tengok, cepat tengok, nanti sudah mau bungkus".... i took a brave step forward into the compound.....then, i hesitated....."do i want the image of a body hanging by the neck to haunt me for god knows how many years?" i wondered.. .........then my conscience hit me, the last thing i could possibly do to show respect for the deceased is to not stare at her lifeless grotesque face like some freak show. i withheld my steps....then i slowly walked back to my house leaving the commotion behind. till this day........i am grateful that i do not have that grossly image etched in my mind forever......
Kevin Chan
· 2 years ago
I told you before didnt I? I had a friend of mine that killed himself. Witnessing death literally happening before you - no being willing given up in a single jump - really makes you think about what really matters to you. Don't let it get to you, but learn something from this. Keep on living girl, life's worth it.
Aimee
· 2 years ago
i like this entry.. last week i read A long way down by nick hornby.
and i think you're right. people just weigh the pros and cons of living. and if death seems to be a better prospect, then some people, like lady in white, will have no qualms about making decisions like that.
like what dumbledore said, sometimes we have to choose between what's right and what's easy. maybe to her, jumping off the balcony was both.
paupau
· 2 years ago
death is always difficult to think about when it's that close, physically or emotionally. you see death all the time in the newspapers and on tv that you begin to get a little bit desensitized to it, at least i know that's the case with me. it's weird how even seeing a dead stranger will put things into perspective sometimes
Jun
· 2 years ago
maybe it's homicide?
sometimes, the power of love isn't strong enuf to deter one from wanting to go to the nether world. one of our much-respected professors committed suicide the same way as this lady did earlier this yr. he was well-loved by his family (which i suppose is the strongest form of love if love is to stop ppl frm attempting suicide), yet he still chose to go down (pun not intended ;p) tht path. i do think tht there's a complex web of reasons as to why one commits suicide, and us as outsiders, sad but true, all we can do is sigh.
Adrian C
· 2 years ago
there are many lost souls in the world. as Christians we can only tell people the good news of Jesus Christ. Our one and only true hope.
SzeWei
· 2 years ago
When I first read the beginning of this entry, I thought it was a guy. Someone who has lost all his energy carrying the heavy load of problems behind him. But now, I guess that lady has lost all hopes and happiness in everything. She must have had alot of sufferings before she decided that dying was better off. I believe anyone who would attempt suicide are people whom this world matters to.
Michael
· 2 years ago
its sad cos ppl really just dont care much. how much suffering, agony and pain. if its seems far enough, it really would not be your problem at all. You are a kind soul, still being concerned at humans in a rather far proximity with you. But they are still many out there, and u cant do anything to save them. It was just natural fdr human, to ignore.
heartless-usagi
· 2 years ago
"if there is anything that can deter anyone from suicide, it is love."
it could also be a reason that leads to it...
how sad.there was this one time a friend of mine told me someone fell from the top floor of his apartment.it turned out the person accidently fell,and wasnt commited suicide at all.the stories was like this.a friend of the deceased was waiting for him downstairs,asked him to hurry up.the guy went up to his apartment which was on the top floor,didnt have his keys with him so he tried to get in through the window or something [dont ask me how la.this was what my friend told me] and next thing his friend knew,the deceased fell right in front of his eyes T.T
abby
· 2 years ago
so odd... a 30-odd year old guy fell from my 7th floor condo and died too. a note was left apologizing to his loved ones. this happened yesterday morning. really makes you wonder what went through their minds the whole time huh.
reallybites
· 2 years ago
you know i have this impression that if a person chooses to jump off some tall buildings, then he/she must have really meant it compared to errr other methods. coz once u jump, there's no turning back.
and i wonder how many of those who jumped off changed their minds as they flew.
nat
· 2 years ago
apparently she bought her outfit that morning and she's staying alone because of psychological problems. her children do not stay with her for safety reasons. she just shifted in early september, which is why nobody recognizes her. before she left she sent a text to her only relative, her adopted brother, thanking him for bearing her cost of living etc etc.
...as told by the guards.
you should have been home earlier. it was so weird just looking at her, laying there unnoticed in the beginning. and the process was....hmmm.
she lived 3 floors above you though.
ashleighhhh
· 2 years ago
FREAKY! i refer to the comment above mine.
i admire you, su ann. really. i wish i could write like you do. poor suicide lady =( wish i could have done something for her too.
chris
· 2 years ago
nobody would want to identify her anyway... even if they knew her. Owning up as a neighbour or even as someone who doesn't know her but has been seeing her around would just spell trouble for themselves; that would be the mindset of Malaysians, even I'm not excluded, I daresay.
It's just unfortunate that this lady had nobody to turn to when she needs any, and heeded by no one as she was deluding herself into a mind craze... makes you wonder if you have been taking a good look at the people around you, be they friends or just passerbys on your way to work, to just stop and smile, or just give them a simple greeting to show that they do exist in this world we dare to call our own...
and maybe, just maybe, you would have saved a life from drowning into a sorrowful pit.
smarty
· 2 years ago
your mastery of words always convey vivid and precise sensory details to readers. inadvertently giving out equally vivid & precise details as well as coordinates of yourself too often.....hmmm... be careful about this baby.
your good readers/friends should also bear this in mind. for e.g 3 floor above 13 equals 16th floor. if the newspaper reports the scene/place of incident, any cyberstalker; psychopathic, psychotic or obsessive could easily 'stalk' you.
maybe this talk of death/suicide is getting me nervous or probably you will dismiss it as signs of my 'tender' age, no?
love from smarty
smartypants
· 2 years ago
ooopssie..forgot to wear my 'pants'...signs of dementia...
smartypants
foreverjas
· 2 years ago
sad. life's so short. sad. sad. sad.
JustAnotherTragedy
· 2 years ago
at one point of my life i used to feel suicidal. i guess if i was pushed a little further i would have attempted it but it never happened. then again even if it did, i doubt id have the guts to do it. i cant bear the thought of leaving my dogs and everyone else around me i love. haha.
k0k
· 2 years ago
Last year, some bloke hung himself in my hostel, in a room below mine. His last words was; "Life is all about fitness. I'm not fit for it."
Eggplant
· 2 years ago
I think Martian is glad to have you too, especially after that pool party tee hee. Hope you get lots of pool parties in S'pore as well.
bunni3
· 2 years ago
*hugs* life is short.. people say it all the time and only God knows why things happen the way they do. it is a shame that things like this happen but i guess all we can do is pray.
sarang
· 2 years ago
death is tragic but life is miserable
foreverjas
· 2 years ago
your post made me cried.
ria
· 2 years ago
this is such a sad post. =( i could only imagine what you felt right then. *hugs* you're right there, lucky us who know what it feels like to love and be loved. there really is a need for more of that to go around. take care!
Liked the vividness of this post alot. A dozen other bloggers would've taken pictures and write a one-liner/ one para OMGOMGOMG entry but somehow your "appreciation" for the moment is quite mesmerising.
Here's a thought - we are - each one of us - in midflight on our way to the end. What was she thinking? Maybe that's what she was wondering too...
joanne
· 2 years ago
OMG!!..so coincidently, at the same dATE 8/9/2007 at 7pm or so, a gal commit suicide by jumping from 7'th or (maybe higher) floor of an apartment in Melaka.. the cause of her crazy action was, she was pressured by her parents to give up on her husband, because she married secretly with that husband of hers. she is one of the 4flat accounting student, age only 20.!!! She's a chindian, husband indian...ppl said she not bad looking.
i saw the police took the body (cannot see clearly coz she is in the black plastic bag already)..n that was around 8something. Heard from the ppl living in that apartment said that her head was sMASHED..=_+..my friend had the photo but, well i choose not to see, i cant barely see it la. partly felt geli, partly felt bad..like no respect..hm..
man..i wonder if it has anything to do with ghost month?..eerieeeeeeee
All Comments
Well, I hadn't exactly witness something like this before but once my POL teacher told me about something similar except for the person who died was not commiting suicide. He was being flung down by a couple of illegal immigrants. It's even horrifying because he witnessed the person falling down. Free falling.
Anyway, you should now read Emily Dickinson's There's been a Death in the Opposite House.
God bless the deceased. Amen.
I hope she's happy too, but do you think people who end their life in such a way find happiness in afterlife?
Of course, there are times when you get people just wanting attention, so they stage false suicide attempts, but even these can go the wrong way and they might end up dead.
I suppose at the end of the day, through various circumstances and consequences in life, not everyone has the courage to endure living... death is the easy way out.
i love you babe, just saying this in case i die of sudden brain damage due to the tremendous amount of workload
so sad i read the whole post huhuhu
is a 100% suicide? could it be some accidents? murder? oops! watching too much of dramas.
you know why they coined the term "love is blind"? it's coz you aren't thinking with your head anymore. it's with your heart and emotions. god knows what that kinda thinking can and will do to you.
it's sad that she chose the easy way out, but for some people, a dead-end is all they see. may her soul rest in peace.
last week i read A long way down by nick hornby.
and i think you're right. people just weigh the pros and cons of living. and if death seems to be a better prospect, then some people, like lady in white, will have no qualms about making decisions like that.
like what dumbledore said, sometimes we have to choose between what's right and what's easy. maybe to her, jumping off the balcony was both.
sometimes, the power of love isn't strong enuf to deter one from wanting to go to the nether world. one of our much-respected professors committed suicide the same way as this lady did earlier this yr. he was well-loved by his family (which i suppose is the strongest form of love if love is to stop ppl frm attempting suicide), yet he still chose to go down (pun not intended ;p) tht path. i do think tht there's a complex web of reasons as to why one commits suicide, and us as outsiders, sad but true, all we can do is sigh.
But now, I guess that lady has lost all hopes and happiness in everything. She must have had alot of sufferings before she decided that dying was better off. I believe anyone who would attempt suicide are people whom this world matters to.
how much suffering, agony and pain. if its seems far enough, it really would not be your problem at all.
You are a kind soul, still being concerned at humans in a rather far proximity with you. But they are still many out there, and u cant do anything to save them.
It was just natural fdr human, to ignore.
it could also be a reason that leads to it...
how sad.there was this one time a friend of mine told me someone fell from the top floor of his apartment.it turned out the person accidently fell,and wasnt commited suicide at all.the stories was like this.a friend of the deceased was waiting for him downstairs,asked him to hurry up.the guy went up to his apartment which was on the top floor,didnt have his keys with him so he tried to get in through the window or something [dont ask me how la.this was what my friend told me] and next thing his friend knew,the deceased fell right in front of his eyes T.T
and i wonder how many of those who jumped off changed their minds as they flew.
...as told by the guards.
you should have been home earlier. it was so weird just looking at her, laying there unnoticed in the beginning. and the process was....hmmm.
she lived 3 floors above you though.
i admire you, su ann. really. i wish i could write like you do.
poor suicide lady =( wish i could have done something for her too.
It's just unfortunate that this lady had nobody to turn to when she needs any, and heeded by no one as she was deluding herself into a mind craze... makes you wonder if you have been taking a good look at the people around you, be they friends or just passerbys on your way to work, to just stop and smile, or just give them a simple greeting to show that they do exist in this world we dare to call our own...
and maybe, just maybe, you would have saved a life from drowning into a sorrowful pit.
your good readers/friends should also bear this in mind. for e.g 3 floor above 13 equals 16th floor. if the newspaper reports the scene/place of incident, any cyberstalker; psychopathic, psychotic or obsessive could easily 'stalk' you.
maybe this talk of death/suicide is getting me nervous or probably you will dismiss it as signs of my 'tender' age, no?
love from smarty
smartypants
life is short.. people say it all the time and only God knows why things happen the way they do. it is a shame that things like this happen but i guess all we can do is pray.
Here's a thought - we are - each one of us - in midflight on our way to the end. What was she thinking? Maybe that's what she was wondering too...
i saw the police took the body (cannot see clearly coz she is in the black plastic bag already)..n that was around 8something. Heard from the ppl living in that apartment said that her head was sMASHED..=_+..my friend had the photo but, well i choose not to see, i cant barely see it la. partly felt geli, partly felt bad..like no respect..hm..
man..i wonder if it has anything to do with ghost month?..eerieeeeeeee